The Year In Review - July


Because JY is so devoted to his students he spent his holidays in July with 18 students in Japan. It was a great trip. It had been five years since Cathy and JY left Osaka to come back home and do things like get real jobs, buy a house and have a kid.
Eleanor was a hit wherever she went in Japan. This is pretty unfair. I've tried my best to learn the language and embrace the culture and no elderly Japanese have ever stopped to smile at me and pat my head.
Richard had a slow month, but he did write this. Because life doesn't like it when you feel like you know something the following day he was forced to write the sequel. Little did Richard know, it would get even better on Father's Day.
JY didn't write much. A couple of things about sonnets were ok.
(Photo: Eleanor on the train in Osaka in July)

The Year In Review - June


I read through June and it seems like this was the highlight. It actually was a pretty low high point. Richard's post was way better than mine. Actually, Richard had a good month in his bass bag: he started my favourite story of the year, managed to get an American sword swallower on his blog, and started off on a story about knocking on God's door which he really should finish sometime.
The Curmudgeon started whinging. Second fiddle started the 53rd version of his site.
Presumably the sun came up and went down a few times.
(Photo: Eleanor copying Richard's table manners in June)


The Year In Review - May



My favourite post from Richard in May was this one. Otherwise, Richard seemed to be obsessed with getting some guy called Murray to be the Pope. Richard and JY were limping like wounded sloths towards the middle of the year.


Eleanor had a little operation to put grommets in her ears. At the time this was upsetting, but since the operation she has been a much happier little girl.


JY wrote about how 300 was a movie that promoted fascism (see sidebar), but Richard thought it was just an excuse for more pictures of nearly naked men on this blog.


(Photo: Eleanor in May)


There are photos of Richard on this blog because, well, I'd rather look at Eleanor.

The Year In Review - April


Richard began posting about his long repressed fascination with Jesus, and then he went to Tauranga. In Tauranga he met some students. The followers of Richard's blog couldn't decide if this story of meeting ex-students busking was comic or tragic.

JY wrote a long series of posts about nearly-naked women and Prince. This was very frustrating for Richard. Often he would log on hoping to see a woman in a swim suit and instead he would see an skinny little man with bum fluff. In the end Richard got quite angry.

He should have remembered that for every trip to Tauranga there is another term at school to pay for it.
(Photo: Eleanor in April)

The Year In Review - March


In early March JY spent a couple of weeks at home nursing his injury. Having a broken collarbone means you can't do monkey impressions that involve flailing your arms up in the air. This severely limited JY's ability to teach.

Richard no doubt complained to someone else about 9YJ while JY was away. It was a rough month for Richard. He quit his band because they saw the gift that he bought JY for his birthday (a box set of Samoan music) and made some unkind comments. Moths and stick insects featured heavily on his blog.



The Wine Guy debuted by telling us to drink 22 litres of wine (or something like that).


JY wrote the equivalent of a blovel (blog novel, a word coined by FM) about a man with a normal sized penis who liked to jump around in tights (Nijinsky - see sidebar). Richard seemed concerned about this fixation with the male form. In the end both bloggers took a break. When Richard staggered bleary-eyed out of his blogging den Shelley called the police because she thought there was a strange man in the house.

It turned out she was right.

(Photo: Eleanor in March)

The Year In Review - February


In February of this year we all went back to school for Term One filled with pointless optimism and hope. By Friday of Week One Richard was already complaining about teaching 9YJ Music, little knowing what horrors lay ahead in the class of 9AD. JY blithely mocked and ridiculed Richard, and smugly wore a green T-shirt to Athletics Day with a sign on it saying "imagine this is yellow". Richard, finely attuned to the easily angered nature of the Gods, suspected that Athletics Day would not end well for JY. It did not. Tragically cut down performing superhuman feats on the sports field JY broke his collar bone. So noble was his bearing after the accident that those who witnessed the event were moved as a man to cheer him from the field.





While the ambulance was taking our hero to the hospital it took a detour to go and check in on someone else. The paramedic asked JY if he minded and JY told them it was fine, and that they could go ahead and pick up some groceries at the dairy as well if they wanted. The paramedic got a bit snippy after this and kept asking him to rate his pain on the Powley-Prowse Face Pain Scale. JY found this difficult because there wasn't a face with the caption: "It f**king hurts."

At the end of the month Richard almost had to be rushed to hospital in an ambulance after listening to Ornette Coleman "play" the violin.

JY wrote a series of posts about an Austrian pop star called Falco (see sidebar), and Richard was reduced to petty insults to cover his lack of knowledge about the 1980s Austrian pop scene (exposing an embarrassing gap in the knowedge of a so-called music teacher). JY, forced to take time off school, began to formulate a long, Panadol-addled post about Nijinsky's penis (amongst other things).


(Photo: Eleanor in February)

My Mother's Records


Three

Guess which one is Mum.

This might be my favourite photo of my mother. She looks very "contemporary" although this photo must be from the early 1960s. Of course it was the early 1960s in the far south of New Zealand so we should subtract at least a decade in terms of fashion. Looking at family photos from this period you get the strong feeling that living in Otago in the 1960s was not quite the same as living in America in the 1960s.

Early in my mother's marriage she started going to classes in creative dance held in a room in Otago University in the Physical Education Department. They were taken by someone called Lorna Brown. There were about a dozen people in the class, and they danced to a variety of records including Spanish stuff requiring castanets, shawls and a shuffling mastery of footwork.
When I was a kid one of my toys was a pair of black plastic castanets held together with a piece of red string. Of course I didn't know what they were or how to operate them. They seemed a very cryptic children's toy. Funny how your parents' lives before you were born don't exist when you are a child or a teenager. When you are a teenager you are utterly impervious to the idea that your parents were once young, and felt the things you felt and hated the things you hated.

Then you get older of course. Age does bring perspective. Strangely this reminds me of a piece I read in a book at the beginning of the year. The person writing is a very old Jesuit priest, and he says:

"I am sometimes very conscious that I am following a leader who died when He was less than half as old as I am now. I see and feel things He never saw or felt. I know things He seems never to have known. Evedrybody wants a Christ for himself and those who think like him. Very well, am I at fault for wanting a Christ who will show me how to be an old man? All Christ's teaching is put forward with the dogmatism, the certainty, and the strength of youth: I need something that takes account of the accretion of experience, the sense of paradox and ambiguity that comes with years."

Although my father lived to a reasonable age he died when I was five. It struck me this year that I really knew nothing about him. Am I taller than him? What did his voice sound like? All those photos of my mother and me... he was there, in the room, holding the camera and pushing the button. I really think he must have loved the woman he married. He supported her in the barbarian culture of 1960s Otago to take fashion courses, to do a Masters, to dance.

While my mother was at Lorna Brown's dance classes she worked up an original dance piece set to Mars, Bringer of War from Holst's The Planets. Aside from Mars, Bringer of War and the bit that someone set to Blake and turned into Jerusalem most of this album reminds me of the theme for Star Trek. The last piece even has a female choir. If only von Holst had thought to have someone say "Stardate blah-blah-blah" over the top of it.



It was written in 1914. That means that you have to think about World War One. The liner notes say (about Mars), "It has been called a prophecy of the mechanised warfare that was to come." No. Just because there's a snare drum in there doesn't mean it has anything to do with World War One. I would say most people listening to it now would think of Darth Vader.
Holst composed 200 pieces of music. He's remembered for this. Ravel is remembered for Bolero. Rodrigo for Concierto Andaluz.

My mother bought this after going to see the movie starring Dorothy Dandridge and Harry Belafonte. My mother said that seeing this movie in the late 1950s blew her mind. She thought Dandridge was a fantastic Carmen, and the music and dancing were wonderful. On the back of the LP Hammerstein says when he was a kid he went to the opera, liked the music but thought it was silly they were all singing in Italian. Listening to his version I think it's silly they're all singing in English. Frankly the toreador's song is not quite the same when it's about boxing and he says things like "punch him smack on the nose." Nevertheless, my mother passed on the Carmen gene to me. I was brought up on Carlos Sauras' version of Carmen. The Carmen Jones version starred Dandridge and Belafonte but they were both dubbed. So the record has neither of them on it. Dandridge's career didn't pan out very well.

"On the evening of the Pilgramage, the Gypsies gather together in their camp. On the second side of the record you will hear Manitas and his family. His brother plays the guitar with him. His sons, his cousin and his nephew sing, and during this Provencal night they are all present for you, singing, dancing, playing for your pleasure which, today, thanks to this record, is also yours."


This album. This is the jewel in the crown of the collection for me. Manitas' playing is so rough, raw and percussive. Side Two, the live side, is fantastic. Somehow I have never been bothered by not understanding what people are saying when they sing (sorry to the guys who wrote Carmen Jones), it has always been about conveying emotion for me. The wonderful thing about listening to these guys sing is that they are like the brass section in a jazz band, doing their long bluesy runs, and filling in each others gaps, while underneath are the clapping off-beat hands, and pulsing heavy guitar rhthyms. Strong stuff when I was a kid.

About as far away from this as you can get is the "New Flamenco" of Ottmar Liebert. I have two of this man's CDs and have been to one of his concerts. All because my friends knew that I loved flamenco and were being kind. I think enough time has passed for me to say (1) thank you for your generousity, and (2) German flamenco! Oh dear. It sounds like it is being performed by robots. The back of Liebert's CD says (please read it with a fake German accent): "we are dedicated to a process of continuous refinement both artistically and commercially. As in music, so in life." Dreadful. Reminds me of another slogan: "Work Makes One Free." Yeah, right.

The Year In Review - January

This is a photo of my favourite view from our backyard. At the bottom of our garden there is a small pool of lawn surrounded by trees. I like to go down there with a blanket and a book and watch the leaves.

Looking into the depths of the branches reminds me of the idea that you can see the infinite (sorry, Richard) by getting smaller and smaller as well as bigger and bigger in scale. When Eleanor was a new born I would look at the skin on her face when she was sleeping. I found that it was only if I took my glasses off and leaned in until I was almost pressing my nose against her cheek that I could actually see her skin. It existed in a whole other layer of fine detail that you cannot see in a glance.


I think it is a common enough to sometimes feel that you are letting most of life pass you by. When it bothers me enough I make myself notice by drawing things. I like to take a notebook and sketch when I go on holiday. This is probably the only way I will meditate on something. Getting lost inside music can erase your ego (unless you're Andre Rieu), but concentrating on drawing a building or a landscape makes you hyperaware. How has a building, or a tree, or a mud flat bleeding out into the silvery, tidal rivers and reeds, how have they been put together?




Like sketching, writing this blog has made me notice the year a bit more. I have decided to return it to its former shape because I like it better. Even though this is a generic template it still suits me more than the other thing I was mucking around with. I also miss the gravestones (like I miss Nostradameus on RBB). While I was looking over the year of posts on this blog I realised that for the first time in my life I have actually managed to keep a diary for an entire year. I have quite a collection of abandoned diaries around the house so this is a real landmark.
I'm going to go back and tidy up some of my old posts and then put them on the list to the right. So far I've only done one. It was January, there was a sense of optimism in the year, Richard had a spring in his step and a rising sense of dread in his stomach. Even though school was drawing inexorably closer he knew he could get some relief by hitting the bottle and reading: My Mother's Records.

Being Good

There's always a moment at the Christmas party where Santa says: "Have you been good this year?" and everyone laughs. If I were forced on to Santa's knee and directly asked this question I think I would say "define good". This would probably disqualify me from presents.

Actually the smart arse who says "define good" turns out to be the problem that Professor Blackburn only just disposes of in his book Being Good. He satisfactorily gets us to the point where we can say that there is a need in human society for rules governing behaviour, but he can't get us to the point where we can make these rules universal without a bit of fudging. The closest he gets is Kant who suggested that we test each of our rules as if it were going to be applied universally. If we could live with the rule as a universal principle then it is probably a good rule.

Of course there are all kinds of potential problems around this. The Universal Declaration of Human Rights is a fine and noble thing on the whole, and it is very brave to put some of these things down on paper, but when you start to poke even the simplest of the rights you end up with all kinds of debates. Take the third article:

Everyone has the right to life, liberty and security of person

I couldn't agree more. Of course there are the small problems of abortion, euthanasia, war, and capital punishment to be negotiated. Further, what about the problem of rights that require other people to give up something? If everyone has the right to life, and the right to medical care (Article 25) then this means someone else has to give up a portion of limited resources to pay for the liver transplant of an elderly alcoholic.
Personally I agree with the Universal Declaration of Human Rights in entirety, and find this sort of intellectual hair-splitting distasteful. I also think that countries that criticise the Declaration as being Western, or disrespectful to Islam, or whatever, are... well, not to sugar coat it, wrong. Who can disagree with this: All human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights. They are endowed with reason and conscience and should act towards one another in a spirit of brotherhood? Notice that it doesn't say we are all equal in ability, just that we are equal in dignity. Any qualification on that equality is wrong.

The Universal Declaration of Human Rights seems to me a good balance between rights and responsibilities. For every right that is stated you must imagine the unstated responsibility that goes with it. It is not simply a list of things that we should feel we are owed, because every right has an unspoken responsibility, and, I feel, a duty attached to it. Everyone has the right to life, and so we therefore have a responsibility not to take life, and a duty to speak out when we see this right threatened for others. The rights of the individual are really the rights of the individual within a community, and the community in this case is supposed to be the brotherhood of man. Relativity taken to its conclusion works the other way and becomes the subjectivity of the individual, alone, proclaiming their opinions to no one. Being a person is being a member of a group. I will let KC speak for me here:
"At this point I reveal myself in my true colours, as a stick-in-the-mud. I hold a number of beliefs that have been repudiated by the liveliest intellects of our time. I believe that order is better than chaos, creation better than destruction. I prefer gentleness to violence, forgiveness to vendetta. On the whole I think that knowledge is preferable to ignorance, and I'm sure that human sympathy is more valuable than ideology. I believe that in spite of the recent triumphs of science, men haven't changed that much in the last two thousand years; and in consequence we must still try to learn from history. History is ourselves. I also hold two beliefs that are more difficult to put shortly. For example, I believe in courtesy, the ritual by which we avoid hurting other people's feelings by satisfying our own egos. And I think we should remember that we are part of a great whole, which for convenience we call nature. All living things are our brothers and sisters. Above all, I beleive in the God-given genius of certain individuals, and I value a society that makes their existence possible.... I said at the beginning that it is lack of confidence, more than anything else, that kills a civilisation. We can destroy ourselves by cynicism and disillusion, just as effectively as by bombs."
Kenneth Clark

I think it must been horrendously unfashionable to love Kenneth Clark, but I unashamedly do, and this statement from the end of his fantastic series Civilisation is something that means a lot to me. The end of this series is actually somewhat pessimistic. He quotes the following portion of the Yeat's poem Second Coming,

Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.

For Kenneth Clark in the 1970s it seemed that there was no centre, and it can seem that way now too. We have a centre though if we choose to remember it. The best of civilisations have maintained themselves through tolerance, and tolerance is about brotherhood and brotherhood is about love. This is very hard work. It is much easier to practise fanaticism. Sometimes I am pretty intolerant. Sometimes it is just easier to be rude, meanspirited and petty, even to people I love. Mr. Munro Leaf had this to say in his children's book Manners Can Be Fun,

Very often the people we like most live in the same house with us. We see them so often we sometimes forget to be as nice to them as we are to others. Most of the time it is just because we do not think of it.

The society we want, and the centre we crave is in our home and with our family. This might be why the story of Christmas has some resonance still. I have not always been good this year and I ask your forgiveness. There is always today, and renewing ourselves.

Why asian immigration is good.

Two recent headlines stated exactly how bad our education system is supposed to be.

The first headline gleefully announced that we were crappier than Kazakhstan at science in primary school. We all know this is dire because we have all seen Borat which is a gripping, fly-on-the-wall documentary about the Kazakhstan primary school education system.

The following day we were told that “New Zealand has been ranked second worst among 37 countries when it comes to bullying in primary schools, according to a major international report.” The solitary country below us was Tunisia.

These seemed like remarkable claims so I decided to investigate further. Both stories come from the same report. The report is from the Trends in International Mathematics and Science Study which “provides reliable and timely data on the mathematics and science achievement of U.S. 4th- and 8th-grade students compared to that of students in other countries. TIMSS data have been collected in 1995, 1999, 2003, and 2007.” New Zealand participates in this study for our equivalent of 4th grade; students who are nine to ten years old.

In science, where the average score was given as 500, Kazakhstan was ranked 11th on 533 points while New Zealand was ranked 22nd on 504 points. This is a gap of 29 points, and 11 rankings. Curiously the bigger gap between New Zealand and its academic arch rival Kazakhstan was in maths where they were placed 5th on 549 points and we were 23rd on 492 (below the international average).

Maths (36 participant countries)
Average Score: 500
1. Hong Kong 607
2. Singapore 599
3. Taipei 576
4. Japan 568
5. Kazakhstan 549

11. USA 529
23. New Zealand 492
36. Yemen 224

So, how come the story in the New Zealand media was about science and not about maths which was an even worse result?

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I have a friend who is doing a PhD in Mathematics. He once observed that he thought it was incredible that in New Zealand it was laughingly accepted if someone was barely numerate (“I can’t do division!”) but regarded as a shameful secret if someone was illiterate. He thought both things should be regarded as equally shameful. He’s right, and I have spent my life as part of the joke.

I was never very good at maths and always faked an illness on maths test day at primary school until my Mother told me she was taking me to the doctor and I was forced to confess. From a very early age I had it in my head that I was going to be an architect. I did Technical Drawing at secondary school and was very good at it. Then someone told me you had to really good at maths to be an architect and I gave up the whole plan.

I got 50% School C. maths. 50%. Actually I probably got 2% and it was scaled up to make a perfect bell curve. I have spent most of my life being very proud of this result. In fact, it is only now that I look back on it and think for the very first time that I was an idiot. My maths education stopped when I was 15. Maths was connected with a career dream that I was still harbouring in my early thirties and yet I still skited about my “perfect” exam result.

Last year I had to take a third form maths class for one spell a week. Sometimes it was a bit hard but what surprised me was that you could actually just sit down, use the textbook and your brain and problem solve and then you would get the answer. A good discovery to make twenty years after School C.

I think how our maths result was non-reported in New Zealand in favour of science tells us something about how we view maths in this country, and when you begin to trawl through how the test was received by the media in participant countries around the world you begin to see certain cultural viewpoints shining though. Here are a few that I thought were interesting.

The Koreans did very well but were glum: “Korean students tend to perform much better in mathematics and science than students in other countries, but have a low level of confidence or interest in the subjects.” The English were quite pleased with themselves, although the Daily Express reported that the reason Singapore was number one was because they were using a textbook from the 1930s, a time when the Empire was still in evidence in that part of the world. The Japanese like the Koreans seemed to be trying to find negative things to focus on in their success: “the decreasing motivation for study among junior high school students is becoming another concern. The number of students that said they enjoyed studying was among the worst three in 48 countries and territories for science, and worst six for math.”

In New Zealand maths isn’t taken seriously. If the headline had been “New Zealand Behind Kazakhstan in Maths” I suspect most people would have just shrugged and thought about how their own maths skills were rubbish anyway. Reading the news in Korea and Japan it’s clear that being in the top five doesn’t necessarily make you happy. Perhaps muddling along being adequate in maths and science is a part of the core identity of what it means to be a New Zealander. Just as it is to beat ourselves with whatever international stick we can find to prove how rubbish we are.


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And what about that other headline I mentioned at the start about bullying in our primary schools? In this survey bullying was defined as “having something stolen, being hit or hurt by another student, being left out, made fun of, or made to do something you didn’t want to do.” WHAT? Being made to do something you don’t want to? Isn’t that called BEING ALIVE?

Out on the Weekend


Three

In the afternoon Eleanor played in her paddle pool and I carried on reading. I went and lay down on the grass under the trees. When the light of the sun comes to you through the cool green of leaves it is a fine tranquil thing. I started a book called Being Good by Simon Blackburn. It’s interesting although sometimes I have to reread bits to really get it. The author is trying to explain to me what ethics are and why they are unpopular.

“Ethics is disturbing. We are often vaguely uncomfortable when we think of such things as exploitation of the world’s resources, or the ways our comforts are provided by the miserable labour conditions of the third world.” He’s right of course. Sometimes when I reveal a particular absurdity to my History students (things people said about women getting the vote, or the intellectual capacity of the Negro, that kind of thing) I also say: “don’t worry, in 200 years people will be appalled by us.” I hope this is true. I hope that in 200 years people will find our global injustices and arrogance appalling, because that will mean things have changed.

Blackburn’s book begins by going through all the reasons people use for dismissing ethics. This bit of the book would have been really handy if I’d had it in tutorials at university.

First annoying person in my anthropology tutorial: God is dead. There are no morals.

Professor Blackburn’s response: Good things exist separately from God. We know this because God also must decide what is good, (gay=bad, straight=good) and then punish accordingly.

Second annoying person in my anthropology tutorial: It’s all relative.

Professor Blackburn’s response: Quite probably, but given that we have to make a decision what are we actually going to do that we think is best?


Third annoying person in my anthropology tutorial: People just act out of self-interest.

Professor Blackburn’s response: Often people don’t act with enough self interest and ruin their lives by doing things like murdering people over a love affair and wind up going to prison. More importantly, saying this kind of thing is lazy and proves nothing. It gives the illusion of explaining everything, and therefore it explains nothing.

I would have read more but Eleanor had gotten out of the paddle pool and was busy not being good over by the rosemary and I had to go and stop her. Still, I rather like Mr. Blackburn, and I look forward to hearing what else he has to say.

Out on the Weekend

Two
I can take myself too seriously. It actually happens a lot less than it used to. When I was a teenager I think I took myself very seriously most of the time. Nowadays I’m more likely to see myself as a baboon trapped in some elaborate prank. I was taking myself quite seriously when we got back from the library. I was taking myself so seriously that I farted. Eleanor stopped what she was doing and regarded me quite philosophically for some time before saying: “Daddy poo time?”

I think that you’re supposed to take comics seriously if they’re called graphic novels. This seems unnecessarily pretentious. This is probably a way for academics who like comics to justify their study by giving them a serious sounding name. When I was at school I think graphic design was called technical drawing. It is likely the subject got a name change because “drawing” didn’t sound serious enough. It’s funny that the word novel now gives weight to something when it used to be regarded askance, not as a serious art form itself. Still, some stereotypes hold up when you think about comics: the three people over in the comic section when I went there were young men, by themselves with hygiene issues.

It’s a Good Life, If You Don’t Weaken is a comic by Seth. The lead character takes comics very seriously. He buys old issues, collects them, thinks about them. He is a hoarder of old comics and old records. He is alarmed by change, he is a bit of a loner. One day he discovers a one frame gag comic by a guy called Kalo in a back issue of the New Yorker. He becomes fascinated by Kalo and begins to try and find out more about him. I like this about the lead character. I love to do this kind of thing; to hunt down information about people who were once known, and try to put them back together again. Last summer I tried to do this with Captain William Hobson.

In the end we find out quite a bit about Kalo, although quite a bit turns out to be not very much. The protagonist reflects on how a life can be reduced to half a dozen comic strips in another person’s folder. There is a great deal of attention to the beauty of things in this comic. Just as the lead character pays attention to the design and brush work of the single frame gag comics of Kalo so he also stops to notice ordinary things: buildings at night, the passing landscape outside a train window. The collage of our senses and the slowly changing continuity of our identity seem to be what life is really. When a person we know dies then the glue that holds a whole series of things together also dissolves leaving only the their possessions, objects somehow drained of their power. There is memory of course, but memory of a person is different from the person themselves. Memory of a person is mixed up in the identity and perspective of the one who remembers.

Writing a book is a way of putting things back together – taking scatterings from the past and fitting them in a way that makes sense like building a motor out of scrap. I mentioned awhile ago that I was going to write a book. It’s going to be a bit like this motor-building. It will be disguised as a set of biographical essays about people from New Zealand history. I have had a long standing obsession with Richard Seddon so he will be in there. Writing this has reminded me about Hobson. I’m going to start with Hobson.

After Eleanor said “Daddy poo time?” I looked back at her quite steadily and said no. Fatally, I then smiled. Probably it was because I smiled that she didn’t believe my denial. I can tell you this, after you’ve been chased around a bedroom by a two year old who is grabbing at your bum and shouting “Daddy poo time” it is very, very hard to take yourself seriously.

Out on the Weekend

One
Because it was a beautiful morning we got up early and went down to Oriental Bay. The children’s playground on the beach by Freyberg Pool must be one of the most beautiful locations for a children’s playground in the world.

Wellington is a very pleasing city to look at. It fits the land and sea well. The geography of the land has dictated how the city is built. When I am in towns where the land has been more pliable in the hands of its people I feel uneasy. The flat grids of places like Christchurch or Palmerston North prove that reason has nothing to do with character or beauty when it comes to town planning. In Wellington people have been trying to squeeze what they need onto the sides of hills and up and down little valleys for 160 years. In Christchurch they merely tacked on another grid.

We walked along the waterfront from the playground to the library. There is a new statue clamped to the side of the wharf near Te Papa. It is a man who appears to be arching his back and leaning into the wind. He faces out to the sea, standing on the wharf's edge. If the wind failed you sense he would fall into the sea that washes and slaps the piers below. When you stand beside him you can see his face. His heavy lids are closed and his mouth is serene. He is at peace. The statue is called Solace in the Wind.

At the library I got out a pile of books. This one is a comic about friendship. Robot Dreams takes about twenty minutes to read. It is cute. A dog builds a mail order robot. They hang out. One day they go to the beach and the robot rusts up and stops moving. The dog leaves him behind. The rest of the comic is about how the robot and the dog eventually find new friends. The ending is wonderfully touching. The dog gets a new mail order robot. He takes better care of him. None of the other friends he has tried out since leaving his first friend behind have worked out. The original robot is found in bits and pieces at a scrap yard by a fox. The fox rebuilds the robot using a radio for its body. The robot is happy. He plays music and hangs out with his new buddy. One day he sees the dog with his new robot friend on the street, passing by the window of his house. The robot is shocked, then sad, and then thoughtful. He goes to the window and turns his music on. The music drifts out across the street to where the dog is walking. The dog hears the music and likes it. Carrying on down the street without even seeing his former friend he begins to whistle the tune and wag his tail. THE END.

Friendship is complicated and uncomplicated. When you’re Eleanor’s age you tend to make friends with whoever is around. It’s remarkable. When we were in the library a little boy came up to Cathy and they read a book together about fish. I think it would be nice if grown ups could do this. When I was in the mood I would like to think that I could go to the library, sit on a couch with a stranger and read a book out loud together. Mind you, to be fair, this isn’t friendship, this is making friends, the first bit of the much bigger thing called friendship. Eleanor doesn’t have friends yet, but she is making friends. She has a buddy at crèche called Tom. They like each other. They share a sense of fun and physicality. Tom came to Eleanor’s birthday party. When I went out onto the deck in the middle of the party I found Eleanor dragging Tom across the deck by his feet while he chortled with glee. Next time Richard comes over I must drag him across the deck and see if he likes it.

All Blacks 18, Munster 16


The build up to this game and the excitement of the result reminded me of why I used to really love rugby. When I was a kid and the All Blacks went north to play Ireland, Wales, Scotland and England they always played the local teams midweek. Most of the games were pretty straight-forward, some of them were muddy, brutal affairs and occasionally they were magic. Over time it was decided to drop these games, to put sponsorship on the All Black jerseys, to let the All Blacks name be used to promote American cars and Australian cereals, pay everyone too much, and then let them go off-shore to make even more money.

Awhile ago I read two books. One was called The Book of Fame. It was a novel about the Invincibles tour by Lloyd Jones. The other book was a history book about the same tour. This was back in the day when you had to take a steamship to the other side of the world and be prepared to be away from home for months and months on end. The All Blacks played all comers, winning every game except a very dubiously referred match against a certain Welsh club team. It was hard work that tour. They played all the time, even with injury, and the travelling was long and hard. Oh, and they got paid bugger all. If you like rugby you should give the Lloyd Jones book a go.

What struck me about the book and watching the game against Munster was how much the All Blacks are admired in the United Kingdom and Ireland. The last time I remember the All Blacks doing a proper tour there were a few morons in the British press who thought the All Blacks should stop doing the haka. If these critics had bothered to watch how the haka was received by the crowds in the provinces they would have known what a dumb idea this was. The crowds loved it – they listened in silence and gave a roar at the end. Just like when the kicker from either side lined up a kick at goal. Did you hear the crowd at the Munster game? Even when the All Blacks kicked they were silent, and then clapped. We used to do this. In New Zealand this also used to be considered good form.

A few months ago I was listening to the panel on National Radio and one of the panellists commented on seeing an old faded sign behind the counter in a rather old faded shop. The sign said: Service Before Self. The panellist said that he thought most people would think that this was quite a quaint idea nowadays. Of course the most extreme form of this idea was somewhat discredited by asking hundreds of thousands men to march into machineguns in World War One. On the other hand self before all else is not very attractive either. It may be petty of me but I have little respect for All Blacks that leave mid-career to play club rugby in the Northern Hemisphere for cash, or people like Sonny Bill.

This is not a post about what the NZRFU should do about rugby; it is a post about doing things for the magic and honour of it. If we don’t believe in anything but ourselves or do anything except for our remuneration what a cold and venal world we will pass on.

Filler

While we were walking down Lambton Quay on Saturday I had to say I didn't want a pamphlet on:
  • God
  • The Red Cross
  • Battery Farming
It was annoying. It's annoying being polite to strangers. Much easier to be rude to friends. To deal with this problem I invented the following T-shirt:



So handy when you have to run the gauntlet of leaflet handers on a Saturday. But wait, there's more.



Tired of having to select expensive cards for an endless variety of occasions? Try this:


Just sign and send. Seconds saved here can be spent cruising pointless websites or watching advertising on television.

Now I'm getting nasty?

I read Danyl's blog this afternoon and was somewhat distressed. I left a snippy comment. The fifty five million people who left comments later all disagreed with me (people read Danyl's blog, as opposed to this one... Hi Richard! Hi Mum!).

Apparently my comment was nasty, but then I don't think it is nice to talk about voters this way:
Mad props to all those Green Party supporters in Ohariu (all 2229 of you!) who gave your electorate votes to the Green candidate, ensuring that Green Party arch-nemesis Peter Dunne could return to Parliament with a majority of only 1170 votes over Labour candidate Charles Chauvel.

Congratulations to Simon Bridges, new National MP for Tauranga who helped rid Parliament Winston Peters and ensured that the eighty eight thousand assholes who voted for Peters simply wasted their votes.

It just isn't.

It reminded me of an article that Julian Barnes wrote about going to watch a very important chess game, and how all the chess geeks used really violent, sexua and offensive language to describe the various players, the strategies they used and their careers. They all thought they were right, they develop hatreds and allegiances, they forgot that opinions are like arseholes. Political bloggers also seem to be an intensely inward breed, whose tone can be pretty strong stuff and yet are highly offended at the strong stuff of others.

Listening to people who are into politics can be similar to what happens when you tell people you are a teacher. They spend quite a lot of time telling you how it is.

How is it? F**ked if I know, but I know it's pretty messy and there really isn't ever going to be a clean solution to all the problems of the classroom. I potter along doing my best, holding my stupid political outsider opinions and voting how I feel. I don't vote based on what the insiders think I should do strategically, and outside certain electorates I don't think that's what most people do - the 88,000 arseholes, the 2229 fools and the other 220,000 of us. Shame.

My other reflection on this blog's brief foray into things loosely connected to politics is that it can be quite hard to make a point if you use Winston Peters as an example. My point was the media have had undue influence here and overseas with some candidates which may not have been entirely fair. Danyl left a long comment on my blog about this but it went on a bit and didn't seem related to my point. I think he was trying to prove something. The other side point in my post was that even if you don't like someone it's not fair to deny their followers representation. Hey, if 88,000 people want Winston, good luck to them.

But frankly I have no interest in Winston Peters' political career (although he did have the best cheeky grin in politics... probably in the world). I couldn't give a jot about the elaborate ins and outs of the finances of his party many moons ago. He's gone. Next time I will use a different example, and try and make my point a bit better.

Postscript: I reread a few things and I've decided that Danyl's post was bitter and self righteous, and rather, well ... nasty. Maybe the comments section was satirical too. Anyway, scratch the apology.

Punching Bag

Journalists tell us stories. In their stories there are characters that have certain roles to play. Because journalists, like teachers and novelists, are mostly liberal in their views it is unsurprising that certain types of people are given certain roles. Right-leaning buffoon is a popular character. Recently there have been two examples of this in two elections on opposite sides of the world: Sarah Palin, the Republican nominee for the office of Vice President in the American elections, and Winston Peters, leader of New Zealand First in the New Zealand elections. While I would never vote for either, I have also thought that many in the media have covered them complacently.


Winston is generally now portrayed in the New Zealand media as a smug, blustering man who has probably done some dodgy things but prefers antagonising journalists to giving answers. Sarah Palin is generally portrayed as an idiot. An idiot with some idiotic views, some of which might have been potentially dangerous should she have become Vice President.

Sarah Palin. Man. There are moments in her interviews with Katie Couric where you just can feel yourself die inside. It's very much like watching that genre of comedy perfected by Gervais where you feel as if you're watching a car crash in slow motion. Tina Fey realised this. Parts of her parody of Sarah Palin on Saturday Night Live are actually just word for word what Palin actually said. What's the problem with Palin? What’s the fundamental thing that led to her performing so disastrously in media interviews? She was unprepared. That's about it I reckon.
You can't, if you believe in democracy at all, discount her from the political debate because she has views you don't agree with - after all she represents the views of many in America. So if she was unprepared why didn't she just admit it instead of trying to bluff? Firstly let me say that I think it was encouraging that she wasn't good at bluffing. Secondly, how could she admit she was unprepared if she was running as Vice President? She was in a nasty situation. Unused to bluffing, talking on subjects she didn't know much about (and hadn't needed to know about in her previous roles), but not able to admit to not knowing the answers. Which makes me think that the people who put her name in the ring and ultimately chose her are really the ones to blame.
Some commentators in America were noting that the media were making a lot less of Joe Biden's gaffs, and he made a few. If Sarah Palin had said that FDR in 1929 jumped on the TV to reassure Americans about the depression (he wasn't President, and there was no such thing as TV) it would have been all over Saturday Night Live and the blogs, but Joe Biden hadn’t been given that role to play in the story of the election in the USA.


Winston Peters. His own assessment of the whole donations scandal is pretty accurate: cleared by the three investigations that counted, and censured by a kangaroo court. I think that any court where a figure as antagonising as Winston Peters is tried by his peers shortly before an election seems likely to be fairly biased. Who the hell is Owen Glenn? John Campbell's research on this was a comment to a reporter who went to Glenn's press conference: "You heard him speak? He seems credible doesn't he?" By any standard this is pretty poor. Constantly we heard the statement: "What possible motive could Glenn have to do this?" I can think of plenty. How about he is a man who likes to feel he has influence? How about he is a petty man who has a grudge about not getting what he thinks he paid for?

I also think Helen Clark's assessment of Peters was fairly accurate: his relationship with the media "is not the best" and he does himself no favours. True. His dealings with the media are infantile, and Guyon Espiner was right to call Peters' behaviour pathetic when Peters stormed off because journalists were standing on the wrong step. Pathetic. On the other hand, if he actually didn’t do anything really wrong then it seems a disservice to the democratic process that his political career is finished, as is his political party, the careers of the members of parliament who were in it, and the representation of the people who loyally voted for that party.

Still, it’s more satisfying sticking the journalistic boot into a man who has enjoyed sticking his own nicely shined business shoes into your gut for the last few years, than it is to be a little dispassionate and not call the result (wrongly) before various investigations are concluded.

Right wing whinging about the conspiracy of the left-wing media is usually wrong, but it is also sometimes right. Sarah Palin is not a bimbo. She has had a fairly successful political career in Alaska and raised a family of five. She holds views on social issues that are right wing, but she doesn’t seem to be fanatical about believing everyone should adopt her views. Winston Peters is antagonised by journalists in New Zealand. His other biggest flaw is probably self-delusion, but he has had a long career, represents a section of our population, has great charisma, and actually didn’t do too badly as minister of foreign affairs.

I suppose it is one of the perils of entering the public world that you have very little control over the role you are given in the national story.

The Fierce Urgency of Now

There are two pictures of people on my classroom wall at school: Martin Luther King Jnr. and Robert Kennedy. They both were shot in 1968. Bobby Kennedy lived to see Martin Luther King's death, and he spoke about it. Although Martin Luther King is the obvious link to Barack Obama it is the younger Kennedy I thought of when I felt that bubble of hope grow and seemingly burst up inside me as I followed the last 48 hours of the Obama campaign.

I only came around to Obama at the end. I heard him on the way to work yesterday speaking at a rally in Canton, Ohio. For the first time in a long time I felt the hairs stand up on the back of my neck. For the first time in awhile I felt that hope was actually permitted, and that it was not a word being used insincerely in the mouth of just any man. Obama in the last few days of his campaign seemed to reach into the oratory of the black pastor, of the Afro-American minister, of Martin Luther King Jnr. I think this is the obvious comparison, and it was moving to see Jesse Jackson tonight standing with all those other people in the field before the first Afro-American President of America, it was moving to see him standing there crying and know that he had walked beside the coffin of Martin Luther King and had lived to see this day, that the hand that had rested on King's coffin was lofted now in celebration, forty years later.

When I got home tonight and heard that Obama had won I went and found my CD of Robert Kennedy speeches and played this:

We must admit the vanity of our false distinctions among men and learn to find our own advancement in the search for the advancement of all. We must admit in ourselves that our own children’s future cannot be built on the misfortunes of others. We must recognize that this short life can neither be ennobled or enriched by hatred or revenge.

Our lives on this planet are too short and the work to be done too great to let this spirit flourish any longer in our land. Of course we cannot vanish it with a program, nor with a resolution.

But we can perhaps remember – even if only for a time – that those who live with us are our brothers, that they share with us the same short movement of life, that they seek – as we do – nothing but the chance to live out their lives in purpose and happiness, winning what satisfaction and fulfillment they can.

Surely this bond of common faith, this bond of common goal, can begin to teach us something. Surely we can learn, at least, to look at those around us as fellow men and surely we can begin to work a little harder to bind up the wounds among us and to become in our hearts brothers and countrymen once again.

Whether we like it or not, America is the moral compass of the West. It's revolution at the end of the 18th century forms the basis of our beliefs today. It has the scale of empire, its rhetoric is listened to, the poetry of its oratory is accepted as meaningful, and it has been meaningful right from the start:

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable rights, that among these are life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. That to secure these rights, governments are instituted among men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed. That whenever any form of government becomes destructive to these ends, it is the right of the people to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their safety and happiness.
And today we see this exact principle enacted with the election of Barack Obama. How comfortable Thomas Jefferson and John Adams would have been with Barak as President is a moot point, but the truth of the statements at the beginning of the Declaration of Independence stand the test of time. America was founded on a mixture of pragmatism and heady idealism expressed in poetry and violence. Poetry and violence is a chapter about Bobby Kennedy. Poetry and violence is a chapter about Martin Luther King.
Well, I don't know what will happen now. We've got some difficult days ahead. But it really doesn't matter with me now, because I've been to the mountaintop.
And I don't mind.

Like anybody, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I'm not concerned about that now. I just want to do God's will. And He's allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I've looked over. And I've seen the Promised Land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land!

And so I'm happy, tonight.
I'm not worried about anything.
I'm not fearing any man!
Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord.
When I got home tonight I listened to Bobby Kennedy and I played with my daughter. I thought two things. First I thought how glad I am that my daughter is alive in an age when people can talk about hope again without sarcasm. Then I thought I would put another picture on my classroom wall tomorrow.
A picture of Barack Obama.

My Mother's Records

Two

When I was a teenager in Paraparaumu it was all the rage to fill up old 1.5 litre soft drink bottles with water and leave them all over your front lawn. It was supposed to stop dogs doing their business on your property. It got to the point where every single lawn in Paraparaumu had these plastic bottle droppings on them (usually with dog droppings in between). There were various theories as to why this was supposed to work. The only one I remember was that the dogs were supposed to be frightened of their reflection in the water bottle. Of course it didn't work. In fact it was utterly ridiculous. Nevertheless, thousands of adults across New Zealand covered their lawns with old Coke bottles in the belief that it did work.

The past is a strange place. Even the past of twenty years ago can seem very odd indeed. The movement of time eradicates context and leaves you with objects. It’s hard to say why people in the 80’s thought neon coloured sweat bands were cool, but they were. The reasons things were done tend to be forgotten leaving only the objects behind like, well like a hundred soft drinks bottles filled with water on someone’s lawn, or a book dropping suddenly out of the sky.

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My mother first met my father at a wedding, and afterwards they went to a Joe Brown dance at Dunedin's town hall. My father was at the wedding because he worked on the family of the groom's farm shearing sheep. He sheared sheep to pay to go to university. My father didn't have a really great upbringing, he was brought up by a prickly Aunt, but he was decent at school, good at sport and a great ballroom dancer.When my mother first met my father he owned three records: two by a fellow called Mantovani (Immortal Classics and Tangos) and Belafonte’s debut record. They are still in the collection, and still treasured although Mantovani’s star has dipped so far below the horizon that it is hard to believe he was once so popular.


Mantovani Plays the Immortal Classics, Decca (1953). Mantovani released four other albums in 1953 including I suspect the less than immortal An Album of Christmas Music. It's hard not to make fun of Mantovani. Even the fan website is defensive: Quality Light Orchestra Music is sometimes confused, with "background” music, or "easy listening" music, it surely is not.... Have you ever heard of a category of music called "Quality Light Orchestra Music"? A reviewer of the latest Mantovani biography cryptically comments: As years pass, we realize that art glows at different angles when and where it is examined and experienced. And generally the world is looked at differently afterwards.

Sure.

The thing is I rather like this record. I like it for two reasons:

Firstly, I love things that were once enormously popular and have now vanished off the radar. Mantovani fits the bill. He was the first person to sell a million stereo records, phenomenally popular in Britain and America, one of the recording stars of his era. Now he would be unknown to everyone under fifty.

Secondly, the little sticker my mother put on the album cover says: "Please keep this record. It is very old, but it takes me back to when I first met M. and contains two of my most loved pieces of music: Handel's Largo and Schubert's Ave Maria." When I was a kid my mother had a tape of something like the London Pops Orchestra playing classical tunes. It had, predictably, a version of Pachelbel's Canon on it. It was an "interpretation" of that piece and it ended with a French horn. The thing is I never knew until I was a lot older that it was an interpretation and I got rather attached to that French horn. Even now when I hear versions of Canon I am always listening for the surging horn at the end, and always disappointed when it doesn't happen. My point is, with some songs it doesn't matter if the first version you hear of something is a supposedly "inferior" - it will become the version that matters most for you.

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For years I had this memory of a book I had been made to read at school. It was about a boy living on an island and he was obsessed with Harry Belafonte. For a long time I had no idea who Harry Belafonte was (even though he was sitting in my mother's record collection). One day I dragged his record out, dusted it off and gave it a spin. Brilliant.


Belafonte’s debut album is wonderful. It was released in 1956 and it was the first LP to sell a million copies in the USA. It is very hard to be depressed and listen to this album. What a great cover.


Many years after I read that book I was talking about, still at school but now a teacher, I was leaving my classroom after the day was over. It was a windy, high-cloud day, rubbish blowing through the halls and across the field, and out of the sky dropped a book. Some student had thrown it on the classroom roof and it now flapped its way to my feet. It was called The Cay and I realised as I picked it up that this was the book I had read twenty years ago at school.

My Mother's Records

One

There are some places that live on in your mind. Long after you have walked out of them for the last time you find yourself back inside them in your dreams. It has been many years since I walked though the rooms of my grandmother’s house, but it remains an important place to me; not as it is now, in other people’s hands, but as it was when I was a child.

While each room of my grandmother’s house has a set of details that I can vividly recall, the centre of that house, its heart, was at the back, off the kitchen. It was the room we came to for breakfast, lunch and dinner, the room we sat in to watch Coronation Street or play card games like Happy Families. Every meal had a ritual. At lunchtime part of the ritual was Gran turning on the radiogram. It was a large piece of oblong furniture made of wood that sat in the corner of the room. To turn it on Gran lifted the lid and propped it up like the bonnet of a car and then turned one of the chunky dials inside until it clicked. After the radio had been turned on you had to wait awhile in silence for it to warm up. Gran would be in the kitchen preparing sandwiches while I sat at the table and slowly the sombre voice of the National Radio news announcer would fade into the room calmly stating the catastrophes of the day.

When I stayed with Gran in the holidays I sat in Grandpa’s chair at the dining table for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Behind me there was a large cabinet. The cabinet had cupboards at the bottom, a bench in the middle, and cupboards above. On the bench space were piles of papers and books: Grandpa’s papers and books. It was a jumble of things all crammed in a row, and a huge edition of Webster’s dictionary sitting un-consulted amid the jumble. It was Grandpa’s side of the table. Gran’s side had the toaster and a chair for the cat. It was on Grandpa’s side of the table that I can remember being swung and dropped through his hands, and given horsey rides on his knee, and the giggling fear of it.

I hear from my mother that her father was a man of dark clouds and bursts of light. In the days of light he was a man of great charm. In the days of bruised clouds and thunder he could be mean. He died when I was five; the same year as my Dad. I never really knew him. A heart attack. It came in a massive bolt at the table one lunchtime and he was gone.

There are only three things I remember about him: the horsey ride; a curiously lonely looking figure out in the middle of a field at the back of his house; and a bike ride on the Taieri Plain.

On this bike ride Grandpa sat me on the handlebars of his heavy, black bicycle between his arms, and pedalled out into the long, deserted back roads behind Mosgiel. Here you can find the fields, and ditches overrun by weeds, the high holly hedges and the hills off in the distance lying like a woman on her side. Here is the old landing strip and hangers used for the reserves in World War Two. Everything silent and shrunk against the largeness of the sky, filled with the heat and the rasping of crickets. I have no memory of Grandpa talking on this bike ride. What would he have said if he had known this was our last time together? What parts of him are parts of me?

Quite sometime after that trip my mother gave away a pile of 78s. She gave them to a kid I knew that had a wind up gramophone and collected 78s to play on it. I didn't know what 78s were at that time, or why she had them or what they meant.

They were her father's records.

Grandpa liked opera arias and he bought 78s of Bjoerling, Caruso and crooners such as Lanza. He was a decent tenor himself and liked to sing at church or embarrass my Gran by serenading her while she scrubbed potatoes or shelled peas at the kitchen sink. My mother has some tapes that have Grandpa singing on them. He sings a lot of hymns. There is a kind of plodding melancholy to many hymns which can be comforting or depressing depending on how well they are sung. On these tapes he sometimes sings them well, and sometimes without much enthusiasm. He was quite old then, although he was never really old, and his voice wavers a bit, especially as the recording goes on. I think he was attracted to the emotional weight of certain hymns and sang them well. A hymn with a decent melody, and a reasonable lyric or two gets a better treatment than a dirge with noble protestations of faith. He also sang the odd Italian tune: O Sole Mio, that kind of thing.
Buffalo 66 is one of my favourite movies. In it the anti-hero’s father sings a song. He sings it in the spare room of the suburban family home. It has been clear from the scenes before that he is not a good father. That he is a bitter and angry man. The son remains at the kitchen table, upset, while the father takes the girls he believes is his son’s wife down to the spare room to hear him sing. He’s made tapes. He finds a Nelson Riddle record. It’s a record of orchestral arrangements that you can sing a long to. He sings Fools Rush In (Where Angels Fear to Tread). As he sings it the lighting changes in the room: it goes dark, there is a soft spot light on the father, he is standing in front of red drapes, and he spreads out his arms. It is magic. All anger and bitterness is gone, the accumulated muddle of the room has disappeared, he is alone with himself, made better by song.

I think that The Great Caruso must have been a very influential movie. It certainly made the reputation of its star, Mario Lanza. While Lanza was often criticised for being an amateur without the stamina to learn an operatic role, in truth this was probably part of his appeal to all the men around the world who could sing a nice song at parties, or in churches and dream of other things. Lanza, like Caruso, was also a bit of a ham. Technicians tend to forget, when they criticise tenors and sopranos who are hams, that opera is also about drama. It is not sufficient simply to hit all the notes, you have to sell the song as well. Caruso could sell a song. Even though it is going too far to take a big sobbing intake of breath in an opera aria as Caruso does in Pagliacci I still love it because he seems to be swept away by the drama itself.

I have never much liked art that is realistic. Art for me has always been about escape. Realistic art is false. If you want realism just open your eyes: it's a toddler reaching for food at the table; it's a mother with rollers in her hair; it's breakfast tables and net curtains. Do you think Grandpa sang Italian arias in Mosgiel in the 1960s because he wanted realism?

If you read closely between the lines of this story I think you can see what I am saying: that music comes to me from my Grandpa through my mother; that I inherit opera from him and perhaps the urge to perform; perhaps also some of my dark clouds and my desire for escape. But then what do I really know of him?
It's a nice story.

American Dreams

I’ve never been to New York. Like most people though I have visited it. I have been to the New York of Woody Allen, Martin Scorsese, Edith Wharton and Walt Whitman. Each one shows you a particular New York. They are guides with their own agenda, happy to show you what interests them but indifferent to your own tastes. Martin Dressler by Steven Millhauser is about New York turning itself into New York. As such it is about The American Dream, and Martin Dressler is an American Dreamer.

At the end of the 19th century, when this book is set, Martin, the novel's main character, moves into a hotel built by a hopeful land speculator in the middle of farmland. The farmland is in the north of Manhattan Island:

Up here, in the wilderness, even the names changed: the Northern extension of Broadway was the Boulevard, a wide avenue of hard-packed dirt. From the high platform of the Eighty-first Street station he could see to the west the half-iced Hudson and the red-brown Palisades, to the east the thin dark river and bluish-brown hills of Brooklyn. (p.74)

It is, as I said, a book partly about New York turning into New York, the same place that Whitman observed:

On the river the shadowy group, the big steam-tug closely flank’d on each side by the barges—the hay-boat, the belated lighter,
On the neighboring shore, the fires from the foundry chimneys burning high and glaringly into the night,
Casting their flicker of black, contrasted with wild red and yellow light, over the tops of houses, and down into the clefts of streets.

That’s Crossing Brooklyn Ferry. There are times in the Millhauser’s book where Martin walks though the city of New York paying close attention to its energy and industry. He observes it as a capitalist but it is described as if he were a poet:

From trains rushing north and south he pointed at the tops of horsecars and brewer’s wagons, at wharves and square riggers and barrel heaped barges, at awnings stained rust-red from the showers of iron particles ground off by the El train brake shoes. He pointed at open windows through which they could see women bent over sewing machines and coatless men in vests playing cards around a table, pointing at intersecting avenues and distant high hotels - and there in the sky, a miracle of steel- frame construction, the American Surety building, twenty stories high… (p.95)

Both authors are clearly describing the same place: a city making itself - from the busy hands of women at sewing machines, to the steel-frame buildings and the foundry chimneys burning high into the night. A place of capitalist dreams.

The curious thing about The American Dream is that it is both the hard-headed, restless, pursuit of business, and a dream with all the fantastical, surreal and languid possibilities of a dream. The pursuit of business and the experience of dreams both seem to share other characteristics though. They have a never ending, never satisfied quality to them, and as they go on they both seem to become more and more elaborate, eventually over-extending and collapsing into thin air.

The beginning of Martin's vision starts when he is nine and he goes with his family to Coney Island. Standing in the sea, with his back to the beach, he has the first of many visions:

Here at the end of the line, here at the world’s end, the world didn’t end: iron piers stretched out over the ocean, iron towers pierced the sky, somewhere under the water a great telegraph cable longer than the longest train stretched past sunken ships and octopuses all the way to England – and Martin had the odd sensation, as he stood quietly in lifting and falling waves, that the world, immense and extravagant, was rushing away in every direction. (p.16)

Martin is attracted to vast networks of order. Here he is sitting in the lobby of hotel:

What seized his innermost attention… was the sense of a great, elaborate structure, a system of order, a well-planned machine that drew all these people to itself and carried them up and down in iron cages and arranged them in private rooms. He admired the hotel as an invention, an ingenious design, a kind of idea, like a steam boiler or a suspension bridge. But could you say that a bridge or a steam boiler was an idea? (p.24)

They are ideas that turn into things, and these things are impressive, but they also seem to urge us on to both greater achievements and greater follies. As the book progresses the capitalist fantasies become grander to match Dressler’s growing business success.

And at once he saw: deep under the earth, in darkness impenetrable, an immense dynamo was humming. Above the dynamo was an underground hive of shops, with electric lights and steam heat, and above the shops an underground park or garden with what seemed to be a theatre of some kind. Above the ground a great lobby stretched away: elevator doors opened and closed, people strode in and out, bells rang, the squeak of the valises mingled with the rattle of many keys and the ringing of many telephones, alcove opened into alcove as far as the eye could see. Above the lobby rose two floors of public rooms and then the private rooms began, floor after floor of rooms, higher and higher, a vertical city, a white tower, a steel flower – and always elevators rising and falling, from the cloud-piercing top to the darkness where the dynamo hummed. Martin had less the sense of observing the building than of inhabiting it at every point: he rose and fell in the many elevators, he strolled through the parlour of an upper room and walked in the underground park or garden – and then it was as if the structure was his own body, his head piercing the clouds, his feet buried deep in the earth, and in his blood the plunge and rise of elevators. (pp.173-4)

It is passages like this in the book where I feel the magic of Whitman tips into the madness of Fritz Lang where a city might look like the grand, anonymous vision above, and where people might feel like this:



Whitman and Lang sit either side of the time when this novel is set. Whitman can see the smokestacks without alarm, although not perhaps without unease:

I too lived—Brooklyn, of ample hills, was mine;
I too walk’d the streets of Manhattan Island, and bathed in the waters around it;

I too felt the curious abrupt questionings stir within me,
In the day, among crowds of people, sometimes they came upon me,
In my walks home late at night, or as I lay in my bed, they came upon me.

Lang, creating his movies after World War One, from a country prostrated by inflation and unemployment, has a less romantic vision in mind. It seems to me that both Whitman and Lang exist in the book Martin Dressler, as both exist in the idea of the American Dream. It is dream that is restless, and we live in a restless age. What has been built by the hands at the sewing machines, and the cranes pointing through the sky has been wonderful, but Whitman were he alive today would not be bathing in the waters around Manhattan, nor would he be able to take the fresh farm air from the ample hills of Brooklyn.


Martin Dressler
Steven Millhauser
Crown Publishers, New York, 1996